Everything that happened with the power and such put me in a wirlwind... I haven't been able to get into any sort of schedule (not good for someone with bipolar disorder) and I just feel kind of lost-- took a step off the yellow brick road. Let me tell you, there are no red apples over here.
When I get like this, all I want to do is run away. Since becoming a wife and mother, this is not an option. My counselor asked if I could make a change that would feel just a freeing and I can't think of any. She helped me realize that I'm in a new phase in my life and I kind of need to figure out what to do with it. The girls are both in school now and I'm just home all day. Sometimes I have the willpower to stick to a schedule, but most of the time I'm overwhelmed. I'm beginning to think it's time for me to get a job. I would have done this a while ago, but I'm terrified.
I'm scared I'll settle into a job and my mania or depression will come back. I'm scared of just trying to get a job and hitting road-blocks. I have no references left-- either retired or wouldn't give a good reference.
So I wonder-- what does someone like me do to get a job? What do ex-convicts do? What do mentally ill people do? What about people who were out of the workforce for a long period of time? Something to research I guess!!
Oops, holiday guests here-- go to go.
Holiday Wishes,
Jen
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